Thursday, July 1, 2010
Questions, Thoughts, Musings
This journey that I am on has taken more twists and turns than I knew possible. This time last year I was certain where my life would be. I knew what my future was going to look like. I understood what my life would hold for me. I now find myself questioning everything. I look at the mistakes I have made in the past and I have no desire to repeat those mistakes. I want to finally realize what true happiness looks like. I want to know that everyday when I will not have to search for a reason to smile. I would love to know that my only real challenge is my health and that everything else is simple and happy. I want to go to bed every night knowing that I shared all my love with those around me. There are so many complex things about life and its all too much for me. I want to lay quietly in bed and be able to feel the peace that only God can bring. I want to know that when my health will not allow me that those that love me are saying their prayers for me. I want not to argue with anyone over stupid mundane things. I want to be a student and a teacher for the rest of my life. I want to always do what I can to help my fellow man. I never want to judge anyone, let God by their judge. The only thing God expects from me is to love them regardless of who they are.