Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Receiving

Yesterday, Christmas came early at my house. I received a book that I have anxiously been awaiting. It was sent to me from the author himself from Ireland and was signed! I feel like a kid in a candy store!!!! It’s the first book I’ve ever had signed directly to me! I am so terribly excited.  I should be getting the house ready for the movers but instead………………………..TIAH



My brain is working overtime these days. I suppose it’s all the changes that I am going thru. So poetry is just something that’s happening right now.  It gets stuck in my head…..so I just write to give it a voice and get rid of it.



In another life,
In another time,
If life could be different,
If I could be the same.
In a body that’s healthy,
In a mind that’s not sick,
If life was a fairy tale,
If I were a princess.
In bright, bold colors,
In red, green and yellow,
If life were a painting,
If I were a vision.
In a simple story,
In pages of a book,
If life was easy,
If I was free.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Divulging……

My life is a thing of beauty. I am constantly amazed at the depths of love for my family, my friends, myself. How is it possible that with so many health problems I can still find bliss? What could I possibly have to smile about when my body delivers such misery daily? Let me show you why my life is extraordinary, even though my body isn’t.
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First and foremost is my son! He taught me so much about growing up. Even as an infant he showed me what was important in life. He is the reason I am sane, thoughtful, generous and kind. I am blessed to be his Mom!
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Cruising, I have been on 7 cruises through Mexico and the Caribbean. Having seen the beauty of this world reminds me that I am graced to be able such beautiful wonders. Having seen some area’s that don’t have the luxuries we live with gives me  gratitude for things I have.
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My sense of humor! I came to work one Halloween dressed as a Saloon Girl. Imagine my horror when I discovered I had to give a briefing to a small room of Majors and Sr Master Sgts dressed like this. Luckily  I had made a wrap to go around my top. So I wore the wrap and a big smile! My enthusiasm for dress up was duly noted by all the gents in the room! This is but one small example of the things I manage to get myself into.
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My Creativity. I love quilting, scrapbooking, creating things that others will enjoy. It’s a great way to enjoy the more colorful side of life while making gifts to give to others. I love the fact that I am talented enough to do these things. I also love sharing these talents with my Mom and my sister. Mom and I always enjoy quilting together and my sister always schedules a day to scrapbook when I’m home.

Photography and Photoshop. I love creating things with pictures. Pictures capture a moment in time leaving us with a visual memento  of who we were. I love having the ability to manipulatethose moments and turn them into a treasure that others can enjoy.
Even though my body sometimes limits what I can do. I still have an amazing full life, one in which I can laugh, express, relate and most importantly, love. I try to ensure that those that I care about know exactly how I feel but sometimes I forget or even can’t express my inner emotions for them. But I hope that my treatment of the relationships that are important expresses for me what words sometimes cannot.
Life is Beauty, Love is Poetic,
I am a vision, I am a song,
Feelings bring longing,
Can emotions be wrong?
Life is Wonder, Love is dynamic,
I am a miracle, I am a revolution,
Changes bring growth,
Can yearning be transformation?
Life is Awe, Love is Epic,
I am a concept, I am a drama,
Passions bring hunger,
Can infatuation be manna?
Life is Grace, Love is Lyric,
I am a triumph, I am a whimsy,
Conquests bring desire,
Can deeds be peril?
Life is Abstruse, Love is Malady,
I am a captive, I am a plight,
Devotions bring caveats,
Can contrition give flight?

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

About Thanksgiving……….

So last night I tried the sleeping medication that my doctor prescribed for me. I slept 7 straight hours and I feel rested. So I am soooooo thankful for that! Hopefully, it will continue to get better because I know how it can improve every aspect of my life.
I spent a couple of nights with my friend, Katie, again. She is still sick. It’s been 7 weeks now and the doctor’s don’t really understand why she still so sick. I feel so bad for her because I can’t imagine being sick for so long. Luckily, her husband has been able to return home for a few weeks since she is so ill. 102_3235Hopefully the doctors will find some answers for her soon. Katie was so sweet and gave me a huge gift basket for helping her out. It wasn’t necessary to thank us because that’s what friends do they help each other out. It is truly appreciated and all of the treats in it are so very yummy! 
In preparing for Thanksgiving tomorrow I made a pumpkin roll. 102_3240This is a family recipe and it is my favorite pumpkin dessert. I do not like the traditional pumpkin pie, this is a perfect alternative.  It is also very easy to make! So thank you Ma for sharing the recipe it’s one of the reasons I look forward to Thanksgiving!





Pumpkin Roll
3/4 cup Flour
1 tsp Baking Powder
2 tsp Cinnamon
1 tsp Ginger
1/2 tsp Nutmeg
Sprinkle of Salt
3 Eggs
1 cup Sugar
2/3 cup canned Pumpkin
1 tsp Lemon Juice
1/2 cup finely chopped Walnuts
Powdered Sugar
Sift dry ingredients together and set aside. Beat eggs 5 minutes or until very thick, gradually beat in sugar, stir in pumpkin and lemon juice. Fold in dry ingredients. Spread in well greased and floured (I use parchment paper) 15”x10” jelly roll pan or cookie sheet. Sprinkle with nuts. Bake at 375 for 15 minutes. While still hot loosen edges and turn out onto  dish towel well sprinkled with powdered sugar. Starting at the narrow end roll cake and towel together. Cool and then unroll , remove from towel frost with filling and roll back up. Chill. For easier slicing, wrap log in plastic wrap and foil and freeze.
Filling
1 1/2 cup Powdered Sugar
8 oz softened Cream Cheese
4 tbsp softened butter
1 tsp vanilla
Beat until creamy.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Positive Thinking…….

I’m sure that most of you know that Charles Swindoll’s “Attitude” is one of my favorite saying. Well today I read another story that reminds me so much of that and I wanted to share it with my readers. Truthfully everyone can use a little more positivity in our lives. So here is something to think about…….

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end.  They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation..
 
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the
world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.
Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene. One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive
words.
 
Days, weeks and months passed. One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.  He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.

It faced a blank wall.  The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.  The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'

Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations. Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled. If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy. I thought this was wonderful and many would enjoy it.
'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present .'
The origin of this letter is unknown.




Charles Swindoll “Attitude”
The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company ... a church ... a home.
The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude ... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you ... we are in charge of our Attitudes.

Motivating……..

Yesterday after a doctor’s appointment I stopped by the book store and purchased Liar by Justine Larbalestier. I purchased this particular book for Read This Book a Facebook book club. And by the time I got home I realized that I have one too many irons (or I should say books) in the fire.  I currently belong to another book club with a few friend and we are reading The Shack. I’m just about 3/4 of the way thru.
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I am also reading The Blind Side. I learned of Michael Oher thru an ESPN human interest story and I am so excited to finish this book before I see the movie. The maroon colored book on the right is my new diary. But it’s not a typical diary…it’s not meant for recording your thoughts. It was designed to help you remember important dates. So it a perpetual diary in which you can record things like births, deaths, weddings, and other significant events in your life. And last but not least my new Kindle! I am so in love with my Kindle. I am currently 1/2 way thru a book called 29 Gifts.  But in addition to being able to read books you can also subscribe to magazines, surf the web, play mp3 or podcasts, and so on! It’s an amazing little piece of technology.
Now instead of reading or playing on the computer I should be cleaning. They are coming to pack up our house in about 3-4 weeks and I need to attack some closets!!  It’s amazing how much stuff you can accumulate in no time. I did a big purge while we were in Oklahoma, which was just 2 years ago. But now, once again, I seem to have too much stuff.  It also still very sad that my fuzzy baby, Ginger, won’t be returning with me. I do have her ashes and plan to scatter them somewhere in Oklahoma. After all, she is just a good ol’ fashioned Okie having been born in Shawnee. Man, I miss her!
I know I need to find that excitement about moving. I’ve never dreaded moving, I’ve always been up for the adventure. But this move just seems to be such a challenge for me. I think a lot of it is this constant dreary rain that we are having and part of it is that I’m not really moving…..I am just going to be floating for the year. So I really need to find my gypsy spirit and get things done around here so I can travel worry free next year. I need to remind myself what excites me about the whole trip and start focusing on that. And I need to go attacks those closets!!!